This is something with which I’ve been wrestling for several months now. How does being a Christian writer in the mainstream blogosphere work? I have no idea.
At its simplest, I can compartmentalize. I can write and never mention my beliefs. This is what I’ve been doing and I’m not really happy with it. I feel like there’s something more I need to be doing, and this is the part I’m getting hung up on. To the extreme, I could go All Out and start pointing fingers, thumping Bibles, and naming names.
“You! You over there in that dark corner of the internet – what are you doing? I see you! I see your poor political choices. I see how you treat your spouse. I see what you write about your children. I see how you idolize that thing you idolize. Repent, for the Kingdom of the Lord is near!!”
Yeah. I think I would alienate everyone but myself. Plus, I don’t think that’s how Jesus would have acted. Honestly though, I’m not even sure Jesus would have had a blog, so this is probably a moot point.
I know I’m supposed to be bold in my faith. I’m supposed to have selfless faith. That was a line from a song we sang in church this Sunday and it really got to me. Selfless faith? That’s big. How do I do that?
I guess I can just start by being transparent about my struggles and how I’m dealing with them. Like now. Full disclosure. So shall we start with an introduction?
Hi. I’m April. I’m a Christian. I want to be a published writer who brings glory to God, who points to Him when I succeed and who runs to Him when I fail. (The Tebow of my little corner of the world? I don’t think I could do that knee-praying thing as often as he does, though. My knees are older than his.) I’ve been doing a lot of failing lately and wondering how to be successful…and what the definition of successful should even be for me as a Christian author.
So that’s it for today. For those of you who know me personally, mwah! Kisses to you. For those of you who don’t know me personally but who are fellow believers, I’d love to know how you’re dealing with this in your own life. Because I think we all do.
And most importantly, for those of you who aren’t Christians, stick with me. If nothing else, you can say that you actually know a conservative(ish) Christian who doesn’t think Barack Obama is evil. I didn’t vote for him, but I don’t hate him, either.